So Feb 14th is coming and its not Valentines day at least not to me. I'm still having trouble coping, like its just one long nightmare ill wake from.
Nowadays im not good enough for Melissa, so i miss these days i miss them both. Melissa is quit still alive just different. I feel i lost both of them.
February 15th 2006
My mom got a phone call in work she didn't say who it was, i just thought it was a regular customer, It wasn't it was my auntie Meme, she gave her some bad news. After work when sitting in the car my mother told me.
"Baby your cousin Tina died yesterday in a car accident in VA" I broke down.
February 14th 2006 Tina Marie Spear a Beautiful, Kind Fun Loving girl just 18 yrs was taken from us. She was like a sister, we didn't hang out 24/7 or all the time but when we did we were like pees in a pod. Melissa Tina and I were the three amigos or three stooges (thats what everyone called us). I miss her so MUCH. I cant shake it, I don't wanna believe it. I keep thinking, Ill see her again, we'll talk and catch up and have fun like we always did.
We had plans, Melissa Tina and I to go to Hampton beach with out the parents, Possibly with our boyfriends if we had any to have fun chill and hang out like good old times. Now when Melissa and I go we have the memory of Her in our Hearts.
I have dreams nightmares if it be, That we visited her grave and the video of Melissa Tina and I at Hampton 2003 is playing on her tombstone. I cry in silence everyday. My mind contemplated with Denile that she isn't gone, that shes around, she here on earth.
We LOVE YOU TINA and YOU'LL BE IN OUR HEARTS ALWAYS AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. I HOPE YOU CAN HEAR AND READ WHAT PEOPLE SAY.
LOVE you ALWAYS
Pretty in Pink you are.
"In Loving Memory of Tina M Spear 12-3-87 - 2-14-06"
but this is something i wrote March 06 for Tina.
Hello Tina I hope you see this.
Its almost two months now, I keep looking at the pictures i have thinking its all a bad dream. I cant stress how much We all miss you. I don't think things will be the same, especially Hampton. I have a video of You Melissa and Myself at the beach summer of 03. We caused so much havoc the week lol. I wont forget it. I think the funniest moment was when we were waiting in line to go down the water slides and we were all hugging and the lil boy called us lesbians lol... That was funny. I cant think of any bad moments. You are to good a soul, your spirit will shine brighter than anyone else i know. I wanna thank you for everything you taught me, I still have the pants you gave me. I'm not getting rid of them, im going to keep them even if i don't fit into them. Ill be sure to visit you. Me and Melissa will, well bring pretty pink roses. I love you and I miss you dearly. I Know that one day Melissa you and I will hang out again and until then your in our hearts.
Love Lil Crystal
x Crissi HiME x
· Sat Jan 26, 2008 @ 06:22pm · 1 Comments