This favortism is really beginning to get to me.
It wasn't...that evident before..
And mom at least returned every "I love you" I threw her way.
Dad would hug back if I hugged first.
Seriously, is this semi-new found favortism some perverse way my parents have decided to cope with the fact that I'm 17..and will probably be heading off elsewhere?--By making me feel like some kind of unwanted bag of s**t who's opinions are wanted neither at the dinner table or anywhere at all? ((If a bag of s**t could have opinions anyway..))
Normally I wouldn't care much..except that it's starting to affect me...badly. I've become insecure and shy sorta.. quicker to anger and more prone to swearing. In every single one of my dreams I can't remember the last time I spoke. I'm always mute. I could be a maid in someone's house, myself in an everyday scenario--but I never talk anymore.
I guess my mind's telling me that no one in my dreams cares what I have to say either..so to save time I have my tongue cut out or am born without a voice or something---how thoughtful. -.-
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