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I hope u know that u're one of the only ppl
in this world that make me feel happy. 3nodding
In truth, not even my own parents can really in actuality make me happy. They don't even notice when I get hurt physically or emotionally. (they usually cause most of it) And only my very specially friends that I have I trust (even then it's limited)
But if u don't wanna be tied down by a gf status, we can just be friends, and u can say u already have a gf if you get badgered by some interested ppl that you're not interested in.
Truthfully, I've just been having bad luck every single day... UGH! URGH! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! There's this guy that keeps molesting me >.<
And saying all these things to me... And my friend that .... Well, It was my fault anyhow. A lot of things seem to be my fault. So, hey, sorry about everything. Don't feel weighed down cuz of me
My teacher seems to understand me better than my parents do anyhow. I'm pretty good with my emotions. If I wasn't, I wouldn't have been able to handle all the things that were my fault. I've always been pressured since I was a kid. My parents made my sisters hate me at one point... They always were comparing them to me, and they're 4 to 10 years older than me, and they were being told that they should be more like ME! SOMEONE WHO"S UP TO 10 YR"S their JUNIOR!!!!! So, at one point, they hated me. And it was my fault for that too. It was also my fault.
WELL, that's it. That's today's journal entree.
 bluevibes · Thu May 03, 2007 @ 01:48am · 0 Comments |
