I think I've found the reason as to why I'm so forgiving. If I wasn't that way, I'd absolutely despise some people I absolutely need. Either that, or I could just care less. I've been wondering about that lately. Everybody always badmouths people they hate to me, and I just say something like, "Maybe you should be nice to them." And if asked if I have somebody who(m?) I hate, I get confused. I understand how you could hate somebody who did something horrible to you or other people, but usually it's somthing around of the lines of 'OMGZZZZ LIKE DAT b***h JUS LIEK GAEV ME A DIRTAY LOOK! OMG I HATE HER GUTZ D:<' That was a bug exaggeration, but I'm sure you get the point.
But maybe my emotions are just too mild. Well, at least the bad ones. When I'm happy, I'm usally very very happy and smilely, depending on who I'm around. But I can slip out of bad moods in the oddest ways. I just sort of forget about them. Like at lunch nowadays since Alec moved, it's pretty quiet and I usually ust stare at the floor or something with my hair in my face. But if i htink of something to talk about I get all "HAI GUYZ!" Would that be bipolar? I think I should look up the definition of that...Ew. It kinda sounds like that. Now I'm just thinking of deleting this whole thing because well...I dunno. Agh now I think I'm bipolar. Great. I don't even remember why I was posting this.
Well I do know I'm hungry. I don't want to eat though. I'll just eat a lot when I wake up tomorrow. Isn't it bad to eat before bed?
Okay so I just reread everything. Jeez talk about wall of text. Mhm so to sum this up, I need to be forgiving.
Ah but I don't want to stop typing now. I hate it when people can only see one side of the problem. Kids do it all the time at school. They whine at their teachers because they were being bad and got caught. Jeez. Just deal with it. I also hate it when they say how...I completely just lost my train of though. AGH! I should probably sleep. I'm not tired though.
I have songs stuck in my head. A couple of measures of the songs will play in my head, and the next one will start. I should probably be thinking about Pirates of the Caribbean, that's the only piece of music we're playing that I didn't get right off the bat.
Ah darn. I need to do my slave journal sometime before Monday.
Also something I don't like about people is how when at school or something we'll be having a discussion about something. The person happens to know 'everything' about this subject and goes on and on and on about it. But nobody cares. They just won't shut up. And they're so excited as they talk. And it's SO ANNOYING D:<
Mhm so I'm done.
But most of the time I'm just indifferent. I'm great at pretending to be happy =] If I wasn't then I'd piss people off. But I wouldn't care 'cause I'd just be indifferent about it. And soon I'd miss them and regret it and try to make amends. But sometimes I couldn't care less.
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