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why? im soo lost! me and chris broke up and it just wasnt a real relationship kinda feeling to me....or him....we broke up on Tuesday and on Thursday his best friend Cody called me after football and planed to come over and hangout the next day and we didnt have school and then after making plans he asked me out......isnt it a unwritten rule for guys not to date their best friends girlfriends? not to mention that my ex-boyfriend, Deon, and I kissed that same day durring school. yes... sweatdrop i know....i shouldnt be kissing him but i still have MAJOR feelings for him.... and i wanted some gum.... sweatdrop redface and then today the samething went on but only after i went to my class i came out again cuz i "had to use the restroom" as i always do durring that class at the beginig and he knows it and he doesnt have a class...so he had a starburst and i wanted it and he did the same thing...because he is tall he held it over my head and teased me with it and then he put it in his mouth and tried to get me to take it and i did....*even though i already had gum too whee ) and when i came back to class the sub said that we needed a cirtian paper that i had in my binder and when i looked in my stuff in my backpack i saw i didnt have it....so i wound up leaving again and guess who just so happened to be outside the door? DEON! xp and so he walked to our sixth period with me so i could see if it was there and on the way he pulled out a green starburst and tried to taunt me again but i said "I dont like the green ones" and he said "Oh Really?" *being sarcastic* and then he ate it and he figured i didnt have the binder in my last class because he hadnt seen it with me then so he knew i'd go to my locker and he knew just where it was *which isnt too far from the class you can see my locker from the classroom* and stood in front of it and when i came out to look in my locker he wouldnt let me by without a kiss and then i got in my locker and he stood behind the door of it and smiled down at me *HES HELLA TALL!* and then he had put a cherry flavored starburst in his mouth and tried to get me to take that one after i got my binder and i didnt know it was cherry so i kissed him and when i tasted it i asked him about it and he said that it was and i said "here i am alergic to cherry and i dont like artificial" and took it out of my mouth and gave it to him and said "ya know you dont have to have candy for me to kiss you..." and with that he said once again in the normal way "Oh really?" and i said "yeah" and then he kissed me but not anything more than a peck on the lips and we kept walking till we got close to my class and he pushed me *rough housing, which we do a lot* and i pushed back and then the next thing i know i was kissing him again and then i went to class and right before i opened the door he gave me a goodbye kiss.....and so now i am torn between two pple.... *sigh* why cant life be easy? sweatdrop
and back to Cody...we have a lot in common and he hasnt lied to anyone in this town...although (and i asked his mom about it) when he lived in....well somewhere else....he did shoot someone but out of defense and with a BB gun....and he is homeschooled cool and down to earth...but ive only known him for about a month....so ya....who do i choose? dont forget everything thats happened in the past with me and deon tho...read my past entries to see that...
 Nyoko Rai · Tue Mar 29, 2005 @ 02:15am · 2 Comments |
