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For all of you reading this, I've decided to take a little down time away from Gaia.

I might seem like a little baby now, but I have a reason. The main thing I've been doing since late 2004, and I started in 2003, was role playing. I have no problem with the theme or guild, but with some of its members. To remain in a peaceful state of mind, I shall not say names or accuse anybody of anything. All I'm going to say, and I've always said this, is the guild needs Refinement, Reform, and Restrain. Plus, a lesson or two in a moral sense wouldn't hurt basically all of you. You all know what I'm talking about, and you all know who you are. Consider me that little overweight kid who complains if you will, we're all entitled to an opinion.

Aside from that paragraph rant, I need to find ways to better myself as a person on the whole. As you can see, I've gotten angry over some pixels and numbers on a screen. It might work for most of you out there, but I can't let it work for me. I already have a short temper, and loses it if someone does so much as insult my weight and/or character. I tend to be lazy, so I should be having a carefree attitude about life and enjoy the small things in life.

As well as my character, I need to better myself at this point in my human life. To tell the truth, I'm not sure if I can find anything worthwhile when I'm not on Gaia. Yet, no matter what my age, I need something that makes me smile or give me a sense of accomplishment when wash my face in the mirror and look at myself at night. It's just not working for me now, so I need to change somehow.

To go with more time, I also need to find a way to improve my grades. I might be somewhat intelligent with a superiority complex, or so I've been told, but I need to have grades to match. You might think of me as a normal person, but I'm not. If I get lucky, I get high 80's on my report card for the classes that matter. And this cannot do. I might not be failing with a 65, but I'm only hurting myself. Before, when I applied myself, I would get high 90s easily. Ten points might not be something for a majority of you, but it matters to me. With grades like that, I'm not seriously looked at for important things or when debating with my brothers Tentaigo and Saigoto. I have the potential to shut them up and raise my superiority complex to a majestic fact. I find many things easy, that they find hard. I could argue, but in the back of their minds they see me as that kid with a B average. Although I'm better than them in some fields, they're both in at least on honors class, while I was taken out for not doing my work. I might be intelligent, but I don't feel like being classified with the people who fail classes and claim the same thing.

The reason? I haven't been doing my homework. Believe it or not, it hurts your average by a lot. And, once you have that habit, it grows bigger. I won't get into details, but it hurts you on big writing papers.

So, all in all, I'm leaving Gaia for awhile. My grades could use the boost, and I need sometime to calm down. If you see me on, it's to check out some things very quickly. I might change my mind, but not anytime soon.