Okay, I'm gonna write this. and a lot of people are just gonna think at first,'well, she's being whiney, she needs to deal.' And yes, you're right. But I hardly whine about anything anymore so hush up and deal with it. Plus, I know that there are bigger issues in the world than my life and despite common thinking things are rough all around.
Anyways, okay, my life is totally sucking right now. My grades are completely in the hole so anyone who is not doing well in grades, I feel your pain! I really do! And plus my dad is drinking. STILL! Dude you think after losing his job, being in car accidents, getting arrested for D.U.I's, his wife leaving, then ME leaving to he would get the picture! He needs help but he won't get it! and he left me alone with my gramma tonight. Not good. Y'see my gramma and I can get along but we hardly do anymore. We're always arguing. Either she's pissed off or I'm pissed off or we both are.
And she never takes my side through anything. It's ridiculous! Like, one day I came home from school upset because this kid on my bus was being such an a*****e and we had to fit 3 to a seat because there are too many kids on our bus. Now I have no problem in sharing seats, I prefer it as long as the kids aren't jerks, because I'm a very social person. BUT unfortunately not everyone on our bus is a size 2 and can fit three to a seat. I was sitting with my pal Rachael, now Ray is not fat but she's a bigger girl and I will admit willingly that I'm bigger myself. So there was no room. But this one kid got a seat to himself for God only knows what reason. He was not handicapped or mentally disabled in anyway. But no one else could sit with him. Then I asked him to move over because one of my other friends needed to sit before we could leave school.
So he gets an attitude and mouths off to me, disrespecting me for no reason. Because I asked him to scoot over. I tell my gramma about this, I'm very upset because no one has ever spoken to me so rudely in my life. and my gramma takes the side of this kid over her own grandaughter! WTF?!
So, you see my issue with being around her for too long. and I think that what I'm saying is horrible because I love her dearly just as I love my dad but just doesn't get that sometimes I need her on my side. I'll understand if she's trying to see it from my point of view but also from a different one but I'd really like it if she could just for once agree that maybe, just MAYBE I didn't do anything wrong.
And aside from that issue my uncle is now not only in the hospital for lung cancer but a collapsed lung as well. So, thank you for your sympathy is you have any for me. But honestly have it for my uncle.
Also I've barely eaten in the past two days; I will state this for all of you that are morons! Just because I said I am fat earlier does not mean I eat constantly. Because I don't. Swear on my life I really do not eat as much as everyone thinks. So when I don't eat I get hungry as does everyone one of you that reads this.; So, I wanted to cook but theres nothing here to cook because I can't drive and my dad won't go shopping. And I have no money and I'm not expecting my gramma to cook for me or anything because thats rude in my opinion. Cuz she didn't have to take care of me tonight. But she did.
And this is where it gets humurous. I'm a total loser because I'm such a panzy I can't even talk to the guy I like at school. Everytime I try I get nervous and giggley and it's just not fun. Okay, I'm done ranting. I feel better. Thanks for listening.
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