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Ahhh, yes Today was a nice Holiday. My outfit was pretty sweet. I wore some of my pirate clothes with a green jacket and brown Ugg boots. I also wore a green hat and a necklace. I think KC got a picture of the lot of us on her camera. I'll ask her if she can send me a copy. I think everyone on gaia would get a kick out of it.

And I took the Sierra College placement test today. I breezed through the english part so I hope I qualify for an advanced class in that particular area...although I've always hated doing essays...The math part was difficult, but that was because we weren't allowed to use calculators. It took much longer that way.
You know, I'm actually quite proud of myself on this college thing. I signed up for the college and the placement test all on my own and I also plan on buying my senior year book tomorrow if I rememeber the money. I also plan on getting to their closest orientation and turn in my signature tomorrow. I actually have enough money to buy the important things! Although I don't have a car yet. Once I get that, things should be more difficult and/or depressing.

Other than the nice holiday, I ended up getting depressed in Econ a little since I had the sudden urge to hug a Bishie and he seemed a little under the weather today. I just hope it wasn't because of me somehow. I would much rather see him smile at his painting or something.

But I must thank Mac. There's always one sentence that makes me feel important or at least a small piece of someone's life that isn't negative. I should probably thank Cassey too since she says it so often. Strange, though that I don't hear it from immediate friends. Perhaps I should stop confronting them with minor issues or wear my mind on my sleeve as much while around them...now that I think about it, though, I suppose I've been rustling things up a bit without trying. I begin to regret saying that small phrase that everyone is bound to say at least once in their life to them. My happiness appears to be their pain. I should probably let it go or...renounce it in some way. Maybe they'd feel better. But at the same time, I can't utter such a lie. Denying it would just make things worse. Unfortunately, that's the kind of lie that would warp things beyond imagine. I think I would end up going as far as injuring myself to forget everything. In fact, I've sort of done that recently as well. I never really hurt myself but I rolled down the hill when it was raining a month or two ago because I needed to get my mind off things. Since I was freezing for the next few hours, I was able to delay a few stressful thoughts for a good amount of hours. You just brighten up my day. You're the only thing I look forward to in class...
I shall take my leave. I must shower and I am very tired today. Good night to all and treat yourselves to something good! Trust me, we all need a little 'me' time.

Back-beat, the word's out on the street that the fire in your heart is out.
I'm sure you've heard it all before but you've never really had a doubt.
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.

And all the roads we have to walk are winding.
And all the lies that people sell are blinding.
There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how...