Heart Troubles
On that very first day
I thought it your brother
That I was in love with right then
But overhearing conversations
Made me a little anxious
And your smile gave me shivers everywhere
When you helped me outside school
And that twinkle in your eye
Gave me answers to questions I had not yet found
So I told my friends about you
They said that you were head over heels in love
Till I found that title for myself
And I was in love with you
So smiles because precious presents
Brushing skin was extraordinary
You took my breath away
And I hoped the feeling stayed
But it swayed
From time to time
Question permeating my mind
And you smile became a question
Your teasing became clues
And the only thing I had to refer to
Were movies and books
The only thing I knew about love
Was in movies and books
Time passed by
And days became weeks
And weeks became months
Until I couldn’t take it anymore
Until my feelings I had to outpour
So one boy called you up for me
Asked you a simple question for me
But the answer was no
But how could I blame you?
What could I do?
So my heart changed
Or maybe just my mind
But friendships became awkward
Touches, abrupt
Lockers next to each other
Became a curse, not luck
Glances in the hallway were warm but confusing
And I knew from that day on
This was false love we were abusing
But then she started to like you
And so she made my feelings wane
But I still loved you inside
And it was driving me insane
She said she didn’t want to
Be she loved you nonetheless
But I knew you were the one for me
And she would never pass your test
So I still steal glances at you
In science class and such
I still tease and touch you
And boy it does so much
But now feelings are confusing
And I don’t know what to say
And every time I see you
I don’t want to look away
Sometimes I just sit in my room
I pretend to talk to you
I dream about heart-felt conversations
And what it would be like for me and you
Too bad these fantasies are in my head
And only I know the things unsaid
So while I sit in class taking notes and wasting time
You’re always running through my mind
On that very first day
I thought it your brother
That I was in love with right then
But overhearing conversations
Made me a little anxious
And your smile gave me shivers everywhere
When you helped me outside school
And that twinkle in your eye
Gave me answers to questions I had not yet found
So I told my friends about you
They said that you were head over heels in love
Till I found that title for myself
And I was in love with you
So smiles because precious presents
Brushing skin was extraordinary
You took my breath away
And I hoped the feeling stayed
But it swayed
From time to time
Question permeating my mind
And you smile became a question
Your teasing became clues
And the only thing I had to refer to
Were movies and books
The only thing I knew about love
Was in movies and books
Time passed by
And days became weeks
And weeks became months
Until I couldn’t take it anymore
Until my feelings I had to outpour
So one boy called you up for me
Asked you a simple question for me
But the answer was no
But how could I blame you?
What could I do?
So my heart changed
Or maybe just my mind
But friendships became awkward
Touches, abrupt
Lockers next to each other
Became a curse, not luck
Glances in the hallway were warm but confusing
And I knew from that day on
This was false love we were abusing
But then she started to like you
And so she made my feelings wane
But I still loved you inside
And it was driving me insane
She said she didn’t want to
Be she loved you nonetheless
But I knew you were the one for me
And she would never pass your test
So I still steal glances at you
In science class and such
I still tease and touch you
And boy it does so much
But now feelings are confusing
And I don’t know what to say
And every time I see you
I don’t want to look away
Sometimes I just sit in my room
I pretend to talk to you
I dream about heart-felt conversations
And what it would be like for me and you
Too bad these fantasies are in my head
And only I know the things unsaid
So while I sit in class taking notes and wasting time
You’re always running through my mind
