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Depression
I've been so depressed lately that I thought about killing myself last night because of school work, my uncle, and my girlfriend. Let's start with my girlfriend, after lunch was over me and my friends waited for my girlfriend to comeover so we can hold hands talk and blah blah blah. Well she completely ignored me plus she didn't even hold my hand...PRUDE my friend talked to her and she said she'd break up with me in 5th period SHE DIDN'T DO IT??? So when it comes to the end of 6th period I ask her wassup and she all-of-a-sudden doesn't feel comfortable with me. Okay, so then I hear her friend say there's another reason, I ask her and she doesn't talk so I just walked off. I got high the next period of a sharpie to relax and actually licked some windex off my fingers sweatdrop xd gonk stressed sad .

Now let's move on to my uncle, my uncle drove off to pick his daughter from his ***** ex-wife. He got his daughter and after he left she called the cops on him saying he kidnapped her just to get 17,000 dollars in child support from which she isn't even going to use ever. My uncle is now in jail for 6 months because of that *****. I didn't get high then but sure did want to.

School work, I have been failing all year recently bringing up my grades I got kicked out of class for saying ewww very quietly abut britney spears. My real teacher then walked my saying she thinks there should be a team confrence with my mom. She later gave me the envelope and not only that gave 2 papers that are due 2 days from then I was so frustrated I didn't know what to do. I moved to english and had forgotten I had essay to due that day luckliy I got a few extra days but then she assigns a poem that was never even mentioned WTF!!!!! I moved to math to find out that I have a 72 into her class, finally some good news. Suddenly I find out that she has a assignment that I did horrible on to grade. I move to spanish to find out that I have an EXAM on thursday and if I fail it I fail the whole year (ALOT OF PRESSURE) I have to study all day to day looking in this bloody book. I had no problems in science getting high off of a sharpie so I don't know what to do. My life is slowly drifting so I'm just lost on what to do I need serious help. crying





Demon Ninja
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Skwert
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commentCommented on: Wed Mar 09, 2005 @ 01:25pm
Dman how depressing


commentCommented on: Thu Mar 10, 2005 @ 12:33pm
now, 1st thing.........dont get high........thats were you start
2nd. If it aint all that important screw it
3rd ur gf..........o well. i would say dump her a** but meh
4th ur grades, ur fault, i cant help you there, it happened to me last school year but this year im acing all my classes. just do better next year.



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anomalyspeak
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commentCommented on: Sat Mar 12, 2005 @ 12:43am
**offers hugs and advice**

Advice::
1) dump the contradicting self-absorbed unreasonable t**t
2) There's not much to do about your uncle besides offer him support - don't let it weigh too much on you
3) As far as school, just keep on working and remember you're working towards something better - a cool job, nice pay, nice house, etc
4) what Jamkura said:: don't get high. If you're going to do anything, take a martial arts class or something. Believe me - mine always helps.

oh yea..

*hug* ^_^


commentCommented on: Sat Mar 12, 2005 @ 04:40am
<center>look.. don't worry...
i've had problems as well..
and i also said i wanted to kill myself..
i eventually didn't..
and everything went well..
just keep your head..
and forget about anything that's troubling you...
try avoiding them..
or somehthing... xp
I had to study hard as well...
my parents even said that they would chop my fingers off if i ever touched my computer when i was supposed to be stdying.. xp eek
....
so just live..
please... :: sobs ::
you'll find in your life later on, that you'll be needed..
and i was needed..
eventually... xp
:: hugs and pats back ::
there there li'l one..<center>



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MightyMights18
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commentCommented on: Sun Aug 14, 2005 @ 02:31am
hey ant... i never new u were that high off of sharpies... anyways dont kill yrself over summer... i wanna see u in the falll. u make me smile and laugh everytime i see u. rofl


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