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*Sighs deeply* Moon... I wanted, no... I hoped it would have lasted longer than it did. I understand your feelings though, there's so much I want to say to try and change your mind, but... that's the selfish side of me, the real me wants you to have what you want... and now, it's to discontinue what we started.
It seems that I am slowly getting more depressed as time goes on, and I'm thinking about you more often than before. I want for you to fin d your perfect person as much as you wish me to, and therein lies my problem. Right now, I feel you ARE the perfect person for me. There's none that's had such an impact on my life as you(excluding my father, haha)
But I know how it feels, because I too have been told "Why do you have to be so young?"
And it does hurt, but... distance is our enemy more than time, in my opinion, as it has been proved. There's not much I can do, but maybe I haven't done everything I could have. In a way, I feel I failed you.
I still stand by my prediction of being alone all my life, because everyone I have liked, lived so far away. That and I never really was the kinda guy that hung around girls in person. I have only a few female friends that live nearby, all of them I like for who they are and not what they look like, so that's obviously not my problem... i think, heh.
I dunno, if anything, i'll just be like this for the rest of my life.
Unable to further my relationships, because i fear change. I fear that if I settle down with someone, I won't be able to have as much fun around my friends as I used to. This is how I truly felt, and... watch "Love Hina Again", and Naru really says how my heart feels. When I saw that I was awestruck at how every word she said was true for me. sad
On a side note, I take another step forward on my quest for world dominat...errr... my career ^.^
3D modeling and animation class starts today and I am ready to take the bull by the horns. But being in a mac-only lab is sooooo gonna kill me.
 Dreadhawk Dragontail · Wed Jan 17, 2007 @ 03:18pm · 0 Comments |
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