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First off, I've been on hiatus... and will still be going on one. I've came back to say so no friends I have made will be wondering anymore where I have vanished to and why haven't I responded to any PM's. I also want to inform all shop owners and guild leaders to please respect my leave and I beg of you please do not take the pets I look after nor boot me away.

For those who actually want to know why I went and continue to go, here is what I have to say:
I left because I couldn't take the stress that was being given to me from Gaia. Due to the fact I have a severe phobia, of which I cannot speak of, but I will clarify to all it was a very strongly routed phobia to where even the slightest hint towards the action/word would send me into a state of panic, varying in degrees on how vivid or vulgar the usage. I hope all that know what I am talking about will respect that I do not have to tell you why I have this, nor have to explain myself any further than I have already. As fellow people and hopefully friendly acquaintances, if someone is horridly distraught by something, one should avoid it.. even more so on such vulgar issue.

Another thing that caused me to go is the fact a friend was being complained to about me, rather than the people not be cowardly and tell me to my face. You don't need to pester the other person, just tell me. I know I said a lot about depression and hints to my suicidal side, I know it was a touchy subject, and I will refrain from the latter, but being depressed and saying you are isn't a huge crime. It's a plea for help and understanding, not to be put further into it nor have another person be complained to about it.

Some unfairness had gone on.. and quite some vulgarness. It isn't from one place I can assure you all.. I am just noting that there was and please don't think it was you, the people who did this know exactly who they are.

Life right now is really stressful. There are a lot of issues going on, which is why I am going to be on a very extensive hiatus because Gaia only added to it. I'll return when these issues dissolve. I hope people will have patience, as everyone should know on this place, that there is still a real life.

I want to apologize to my friends who haven't seen me and miss me. If you want, you can IM me to speak or e-mail me, just send a PM and I'll give you the information.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Thank you,
~Ryshili