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MY STUPID BF!

He never replies when I mail him. He always has some excuse for it too. While I always feel sorry for him, he never really means it when he says HE is sorry. Why do I know this? Because he has the gall to do everything over again. He always does this to me. He always keeps me waiting and I always get disappointed. One day I'm just going to get sick of waiting for him and just leave forever. I don't even know why I even bother.

He doesn't really care. He only cares about himself. I don't really believe him anymore. He makes promises and never does them anyway. He says he'll do me this favor, this one favor of JUST replying to my emails, but even that he cannot do? It's because he doesn't really care. All he cares about is having fun with his friends. He can play all day and party all night but he doesn't have time for his gf.

He's not even worrying about coming to see me at all. He doesn't even want me to mention planning about it because whenever I ask about it or mention it, it takes him ages to reply, if at all. Oh well, I guess all this he does to me is my fault because I never really do anything. Maybe I deserved all of this.

So I guess I'll be waiting for nothing this summer. I don't think he'll come anyway. I think that's why I cried so much? Well, I suppose those tears weren't really wasted then. I can't say I didn't know this then. I knew, I just never could admit it.