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...deep thought... Yesterday My violent impulses slowly leaked out....I blurted out "I'd like to crack this guys head open" funny thing was one of the guys friends was standing next to me when I said it so now the guy knows....and all day so far he has been trying to provoke me into doing it "go ahead crack my head open".....but unlike all the other times,he hasnt motivated me into wanting to....I guess it wont be to much longer before I find a motive.... I still remember the last fight I got into....it was when I went back to my old town by myself for a few days in August.Some old enemy of mine tried knifing me...I punched him in the face several times with my spiked ring... Ive misplaced it since then it was sorta a safegaurd I suppose... Intimidated most ppl to leave me the ****** alone why did I get so **** up and violent? were did I go wrong? I remember I used to completly happy and carefree when I used to be outside until around 10-11 at night playing with all my friends Eversince I've moved back to this **** dump that was my birthtown Ive slowly felt more violent....and violent..and violent... (way to go for influencing me this way mom and dad with your poorly made decisions) My writings been allways dark...but my last short story has been...well one of my most violent ones yet... my parents and younger siblings have noticed it considerablly these impulses are harder to deal with then earlier... my future looks bleak....I cant really see myself in the future. That songs title maybe true "dead eyes see no future" funny how my hatred has allways motivated me to move onwards depressed or not..now its finally gave me another snag after the longest time I guess I owe my existance to -What friends I have left -the nonsense family and Nemesis heart -metal ...for hatefilled bastards like myself -my ex girlfriends ..cursed blessings or not they helped me though hard times without their knowing of it -god I suppose...but he prolly isnt very pleased with my choices ...I may take a short break from gaia...just long enough to clear my head**

Posted by: CYBERPUNK PANDA Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 07:29pm

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Harclave
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Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 08:10pm


	I wish I could do something to help.... sad

Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 08:26pm


	mrauw we will miss you kyrory huggles hope you get to not do that, because i don't really want you in trouble

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Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 08:50pm


	wow... that really sux... but u know what little time we did hang out it was really fun with our whole drunken midgets stories and all

Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 08:55pm


	Miss ye Kyro. Hope you clear your head.

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Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 09:53pm


	...mew

Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 10:41pm


	crying crying [♥] Aw, poor Kyro. Hope you feel better. I will pray for you! Don't worry, God will still love you no matter what choices you make. Though He may not be pleased with them. [♥] -hugs- cry John 3:16 [♥] I am still thinking of a birthday present for you. Sorry it is taking so long. [♥] xp

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Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 10:48pm


	Your a good friend Kyro. Stay out of trouble, clear your thoughts. We are here for you, even if we are far away, we always will be. Now run along little fella. ^w^

Commented on: Thu Oct 05, 2006 @ 11:32pm


	kyro pick up the sport of boxing it could help you or start taking martial arts ill ttul dude. take care cuz

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Commented on: Fri Oct 06, 2006 @ 12:31am


	crying crying crying awww I wish you the best of luck ... happiness is just around the corner ^.~

Commented on: Fri Oct 06, 2006 @ 01:23am


	I really hope you cool down and find something that makes you happy above all things. It's your life and you can make it whatever you want it to be. Screw everything and everyone else it's all you Kyro. You wanna get out of your hell then start climbing. We didn't talk much but when we did I always enjoyed it. So don't be a stranger okies. Oh my goodness, ofcourse I'm the dork with the big a speech sweatdrop 4laugh**

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Commented on: Fri Oct 06, 2006 @ 03:57am


	Oh god Brandon.... sad I'm so sorry. I hope things turn out okay for you... I'm so sorry. cry I really liked what Mellie had to say. God will always be with you Brandon. And no matter what....we will too. heart -huggle cuddles- I love you so much daddy cry I hope you come back soon.... u___u

Commented on: Sat Oct 07, 2006 @ 03:18am


	TT.TT awww Kyro.... i will miss u dood.

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