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Dejected and depressed

Evil thoughts going threw her mind

Wanting nothing more

Then contentment in her life.

Helpless and frustrated

With no where else to turn

She turn's to her sweet blade

And her troubles unfurl.

She thinks of the friends once so close

Now only seem to bring more pain.

Lectures and stern voices

Remind her she can't do nothing right.

For every friend

Who she has hurt she adds a cut

And a cut for every time

A friend has inflicted pain

Weather it was intentional or not

Next she thinks of her boyfriends

Not caring if they were worth it or not

Adding to the growing number of cuts

On her pale worthless body.

The fights; the tears; the heartbreaks

All she blames herself for.

She thinks of her family

And how despite their kind faces

The feeling they want nothing to do with her.

For every little disappointment

And every little mistake she made'

Now the final cuts

The one's to end the grief

She sinks down in the tub

The blood already tainting the water

Just another sweet relief.

She grips her blade tight

Scared of the pain

But knowing it will all be over soon

She braces herself for the desired relief

And hears her little 9 year old sister

Playing games on her computer

And she puts the blade down.

Not wanting to corrupt the innocent

With the image of a bloody body haunting her in her sleep

She gets out and wraps in a towel

Sinking to the floor and crying her heart out

Till it even hurts to much to cry

And plasters a smile on her face

And comes and sees her sisters smiling face

And holds on to her life for one more day.