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well its the end of yet another year. im home. my sister is in milwaukee, my brother will be leaving shortly to go to a party, and my parents are at their friend's house until like 10:30. so when tim leaves, itll be just me and kato. good thing we're taking care of him right now, otherwise id probably get drunk by myself xd but yeah. ive had trouble sleeping lately. ive been thinking too much. last night i was freaking out on mike p., but hes a jerk so he deserves it. but i noticed how much i dont want anything to do with anyone anymore. people hurt me too much and its too much work to have a friendship when they either contribute nothing or where i dont feel like i belong there. i love you alice, erin and anna, but i dont feel like its me. i know ill crawl back anyways so i guess it doesnt really matter. but geez. i cant find anyone. the only real people i have things with are dara and zach, and theyre both here on gaia. and dara never talks to me. and i feel weird things with zach. idk. i feel super lonely and i dont want to be here with there people anymore. i just want to go to sleep and live in my dreams forever. that is the only time when i am truely happy

happy new year