Bah.... Really I dunno what to ramble about.
This past week, for some reason I feel really weepy and down and stuff. I'm not sure why. I think my emotions are going funny again. Nothing is really upsetting me, well, that I directly know of.
Actually, scratch that. Lately I've just been getting these PMs begging me for items on another site, and it just ticks me off and the fact they are coming over on this site is bothering me greatly.
Another would be the Children of the Gods took away my kid, which I shall admit I haven't rped a whole lot, but we had a deal with the former artist that me and Seraph would be doing Journal only stuff because of how busy our lives are. I understand that I should of done stuff to try and keep it to date, but I wanted to do stuff with Seraph, which has been hard because she's got a busier lifestyle now.
My passion for life seems to be coming and going, when I laugh, I seem to be going into hysterics. It's weird, I never really had them before but something which I could see as really funny, no matter how small, can set me off on a massive laughing fit, which would eventually lead me to crying.
It's embarassing. Not to mention how violent I've realised I can be when just playing around.
Maybe it's too many sad songs? I have quite a few happy ones, and I do play them alot, even the insanely stupid ones.
I didn't get the job I applied for, which I'm somewhat glad about since the guy scared me. Maybe I will get the other job at Argos. That would be nice, it seems like a good job and since it's a big company, I should get paid quite a bit more then the other.
College starts again soon, I shall have to try my best this year. Hopefully things shall go smoother and I can see the councillor for free. Though... I haven't recieved a letter telling me to come in for my last interview.
Dunno what's happening there.
Going on Holiday soon also. Not sure I'm too keen on the idea.
Sure, it's the first time in years my family are able to take us on holiday, but it's a camping one. It's gotten as cold as winter recently, plus I dont think things in the family are good enough yet. Not to mention the Dog is coming with us.
I hate the dog, despite how cute he can look, I'm totally scared of him. You would too if he tried numerous times to bite your face, and hands while growling at you. It's not exactly pleasant when a German Shepard does that to you.
I think I shall consider a sex change when I'm older. People seem to still mistake me for a boy, then again it's not helped by how I dress. Though... I was wearing make up in those pictures... Odd.
Maybe it would stop me looking younger... Not to mention get rid of my annoying voice. I actually didn't realise how high pitched I sounded.
Blagh, I'm not the only one who hate certain things about themselves. Just I'm in emo mode and it's not particulary good. Or is it thinking mode I'm in? Either way it's still pretty bad.
Maybe that's why. I've had more time just to think to myself.
It's hard to always try to smile, I'm sure you guys all know that.
*Sigh* I dunno if I'm better or not when I ge in these moods. Am I happier? I think so, but it's just going slower.. And I'm more hysterical.. What's up with that?
I dunno what to do, maybe I have that girl thing... Meh, maybe I'll feel better when I'm finally able to talk to someone.
Having a friend online is good.. But... It's not the same as when you have someone near you can trust and talk to. My parents have problems of their own to sort out, especially my Mum, and they wouldn't exactly understand.
My little sister needs her head sorting out quite literatly, not to mention how spoilt she is, whish is probly part of her problem. Too much being spoilt and not enough attention from my parents.
My little brother... Well... Let's just say I can't do that.
And my other sister? I dont know what to say really.. I have felt betrayed by her sometimes, despite how close we are.
My friends, I'm not sure about. They have their problems, and well, to the guys I have as friends, it would be very awkward.
So I guess in this sense, I cant wait to go back to college.
Sorry for the emo ramble, I just needed it off my chest.
Thank you.
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To-Do list is in the entry before this.
This past week, for some reason I feel really weepy and down and stuff. I'm not sure why. I think my emotions are going funny again. Nothing is really upsetting me, well, that I directly know of.
Actually, scratch that. Lately I've just been getting these PMs begging me for items on another site, and it just ticks me off and the fact they are coming over on this site is bothering me greatly.
Another would be the Children of the Gods took away my kid, which I shall admit I haven't rped a whole lot, but we had a deal with the former artist that me and Seraph would be doing Journal only stuff because of how busy our lives are. I understand that I should of done stuff to try and keep it to date, but I wanted to do stuff with Seraph, which has been hard because she's got a busier lifestyle now.
My passion for life seems to be coming and going, when I laugh, I seem to be going into hysterics. It's weird, I never really had them before but something which I could see as really funny, no matter how small, can set me off on a massive laughing fit, which would eventually lead me to crying.
It's embarassing. Not to mention how violent I've realised I can be when just playing around.
Maybe it's too many sad songs? I have quite a few happy ones, and I do play them alot, even the insanely stupid ones.
I didn't get the job I applied for, which I'm somewhat glad about since the guy scared me. Maybe I will get the other job at Argos. That would be nice, it seems like a good job and since it's a big company, I should get paid quite a bit more then the other.
College starts again soon, I shall have to try my best this year. Hopefully things shall go smoother and I can see the councillor for free. Though... I haven't recieved a letter telling me to come in for my last interview.
Dunno what's happening there.
Going on Holiday soon also. Not sure I'm too keen on the idea.
Sure, it's the first time in years my family are able to take us on holiday, but it's a camping one. It's gotten as cold as winter recently, plus I dont think things in the family are good enough yet. Not to mention the Dog is coming with us.
I hate the dog, despite how cute he can look, I'm totally scared of him. You would too if he tried numerous times to bite your face, and hands while growling at you. It's not exactly pleasant when a German Shepard does that to you.
I think I shall consider a sex change when I'm older. People seem to still mistake me for a boy, then again it's not helped by how I dress. Though... I was wearing make up in those pictures... Odd.
Maybe it would stop me looking younger... Not to mention get rid of my annoying voice. I actually didn't realise how high pitched I sounded.
Blagh, I'm not the only one who hate certain things about themselves. Just I'm in emo mode and it's not particulary good. Or is it thinking mode I'm in? Either way it's still pretty bad.
Maybe that's why. I've had more time just to think to myself.
It's hard to always try to smile, I'm sure you guys all know that.
*Sigh* I dunno if I'm better or not when I ge in these moods. Am I happier? I think so, but it's just going slower.. And I'm more hysterical.. What's up with that?
I dunno what to do, maybe I have that girl thing... Meh, maybe I'll feel better when I'm finally able to talk to someone.
Having a friend online is good.. But... It's not the same as when you have someone near you can trust and talk to. My parents have problems of their own to sort out, especially my Mum, and they wouldn't exactly understand.
My little sister needs her head sorting out quite literatly, not to mention how spoilt she is, whish is probly part of her problem. Too much being spoilt and not enough attention from my parents.
My little brother... Well... Let's just say I can't do that.
And my other sister? I dont know what to say really.. I have felt betrayed by her sometimes, despite how close we are.
My friends, I'm not sure about. They have their problems, and well, to the guys I have as friends, it would be very awkward.
So I guess in this sense, I cant wait to go back to college.
Sorry for the emo ramble, I just needed it off my chest.
Thank you.
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To-Do list is in the entry before this.
