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I can say it's been an interesting year so far. I'm now whipping around in a 2011 toyota Corolla. Though where i wanted to be is not 100% what i pirctured in my head for my reality. Life has been feeling like a weird stance for me though. I be questioning so much on certain aspects on my life. I hear certain people say that my self sustainability and independence is what I keep in control of. Yet sometimes I feel stuck, like is this s**t ever going to end? Is this my life forever? Go make money just to live and do it all over again? The main thing that I don't talk about though is a strong feeling of loneliness even when there are people around. I could have multiple people tell me they love my style, my flow, the way I am made, yet go home to my own world of a sense of hyper creativity by myself. So much I want to create yet feel so alone doing everything since I had to do so much at such a young age and seen more bullshit than I should of been through. I do feel a sense of guilt in how some things are yet sometimes you have to trust some senses in you.