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A lot has happened since my last entry.

First, the friend that was salty that I left her? came back and apologized but told me her bizarre reason for doing what she did.

Second, I had another friend who liked most of the s**t I liked and I considered a sister left the following December and then the friend that was explained above dropped some messages and I got to see that she talked sh.it, but not only talk sh.it, she also lied in the process. I didn't care about her talking sh.it, but don't lie. Once again, I hate a liar. She did help me out so thank her but fu.ck her for that.

Third, the 18+ friend? came back, we were cool for a while until she started tripping and I left. I was trying to do my own sh.it as usual but she wasn't having it and kept being petty and trying to pick at me or mess with me. Eventually, after 2-4 years of putting up with it, I finally snapped and exposed her and the sh.it that she do. She tried to clap back but everyone already saw it so she couldn't;t. She's also a Youtuber, right? Well, even her subscribers saw. You're probably wondering why I did it. She lies and pretends so I called her out on her sh.it.

Fourth, Family. My sister came over in June and yelled and me and sh.it. This is when it really hit me that she really was manipulated by my aunt. She told me that I was going to jail and all kinds of sh.it. It's something related to the case I have against my aunt who is STILL...trying to throw me out the house. Speaking of that, I'll update you guys on that in a few. But yeah, I'm tired of my family, especially my sister because my aunt called me a liar, even though she's actually the lying one, and my sister agreed. This hurt because this is my sister and I love her because she's family. I recently decided to cut contact with everyone from my family except for my other aunt, my brother, and my mother. I would want to contact my grandmother but I'm about to get into that in a few.

Fifth, and sit down for this one. My aunt. So I won my case where I sued her. I lost the guardianship case against her but she failed to pay the bond so she lost her only chance to seize the house. She's still trying to sell the house for money but no one wants to buy the house because of the condition it's in and she can no longer sell the house. She also really manipulated my sister, like I've stated earlier. I found out that my mother is really scared of her, but I'm not. My brother came over one day this year to dial my aunt and make me speak to her and she dropped a hint that she can't do sh.it but my brother didn't and can't pick it up because I can;t tell him since no one in this family will believe me since I'm the youngest and apparently, I don't know what the fu.ck I'm talking about. Anyways, she's still trying to kick me out the house and she tried to set the judgment aside but it was denied. She's trying to do it again but she won't be able to because it's been about a year so she won't be able to. Basically, she finally got karma for all the sh.it that she's done to me and didn't want to own up to it. It's to be expected because for as long as I've known her, she's been trying to take easy ways out. This time, she can't. The fact that she thought that she could turn off the utilities on me, talk sh.it about me to the family in front of my face, stress the family out, turn the utilities off on me, especially when my mother, her own sister, was living with me and get away with it. Yeah, no.

Next, love. Zak is my husband, right? Well, we knew a person from void who he considered as a brother and I considered as a son. He used me for items and then defamed me behind my back. He also defamed my husband. I tried to tell Zak to drop him because he's not worth the time. He told me he did but I found out that he lied about it. I was upset and lost almost every bit of trust I had in him. I also used to have access to his discord and would like to read his rps because he rps with his friends. He didn't care about any of that but the moment he got caught talking to the same person from void, he changed his password. I assumed that he thought that I was gonna do something to him when I wasn't. *shrugs* .... So yeah, because I don't like a liar, he lost my trust. He have it back though. But boy, was I angry. I was trying so hard to look after him because Zak is kindhearted but he can be very, very gullible. Some of his friends don't really care about him either. I've tried to warn him but I'm not really sure if he actually listened to me. Time will tell. Plus, I have to let him see it for himself for him to really get it. Speaking of Zak, his mother recently passed away so I'm currently giving him space for that. He said that he's fine so I'll take his word for it.

So the 18+ person started to talk to me again and so far, she is clowning. She's been trying to copy some of the sh.it that I do but failing miserably. She's also been trying to copy people's art styles. It's one thing to be inspired but another thing to straight-up copy someone's body of work. She's also been acting out. Basically, saying stuff but looking like a hypocrite because she's been trying to call people out on the same sh.it that she does herself. But hey, at least people get to see it for themselves. I've warned everyone about her and now, people get to really see it.

I also had another friend that I got into drama with because they would ask for advice but wouldn't follow through. They also can be very dramatic and very sensitive. I don't know why I keep getting sensitive people as friends. Lord, please save me from this. Anyways, they thought I was controlling them when they literally asked for my honest input and I gave it to them. I basically told them that something wasn't going to work out and they could try something else instead. That and the asked advice on a continuing situation with them where they're fu.cking themself over by continuing what they're doing so I called them out for it. They then went and whined to my friend about my honest statement and it got back to me. I got mad because I felt like my time was wasted so I confronted them about it and then they got mad at my friend for telling me. I let my friends have it while I was trying to relax from getting stressed out. Noooo, let's drag Chichi in the situation. So I kicked the friend out my friends group because I did not want to get dragged in their fight since it's between them. Them, they lashed out at me and accused me of sh.it. I have a pet peeve where I hate getting accused of things. Because of this, when they told me "get lost, I don't need you". That's exactly what I did. I blocked them while they were in the middle of typing. They went to the same friend they were fighting with and he dipped too. For a while the friend was trying to be shady and said that I traumatized them. Explain to me how someone can be traumatized but still stalk and follow the said person who apparently traumatized them. I eventually called them out on it and was about to go ham on them if they kept accusing me of s**t. That's when they calmed down, after realizing that I'm someone no one wants to anger, and fixed sh.it with me.

So there's a lot less drama than before and I had to cut some ties.