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But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home.

New podcast is up.

I totally trail off at the end and space out, so.. whatever. i'm ******** tired, and I'll explain what the ******** the last bit is all about here. So, it's a two-part update. Joy of joys.

There are people out there with the capability to leave everything else behind. Their loves, lives, possesions.. Everything. All to pursue a new opportunity.

I can't.

I am simply incapable of letting everything go to chase after something new. Sometimes, I regret this. It's held me back from starting a PC shop, a custom mods business, and several other ventures I've been interested in pursuing. I could have failed horribly, or I could have succeeded. I'll never really know because I've learned by now that I'm incapable of doing things like this.

I try to let life go the way it's going to go, and play with the hand life has dealt me. While it does prove adaptive and has so far served me pretty well, I've never explored the depths of the other options available to me. Maybe I regret that now. Not like it's too late to change and do something about it, but.. I don't think i'm quite capable.

So, I propose that somone with a bit less attachment to their stability than I have, try several things, perhaps they'll change your life.

Be genuinely happy to see somone.

Give somone a hug with feeling behind it.

Give somone a kiss that means something.

Tell the person you love how you feel. Don't gloss over it, or make it cheap. Do not lie.

On the same token..

If somone loves you, let them know how you feel.

And always keep in mind; [******** the consequences.

Maybe you'll do something I can't.

"You're always two steps from perfection and two steps from absolute disaster. The dividing line may be safe, but it's razor sharp and you may die upon it."

Twistex.podomatic.com

Music by:

Grant Lee Buffallo - "Happiness"

Stone Sour - "Through the glass"