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I'm not emo..I just hate myself
drawings....emotionally challeged stuff...yeah....
Death...on my birthday....
My birthday was today...i know most ppl would think "hey! you should be happy its your birthday!!"...but no...i wasn't.....i tend to get REALLY emo....when i feel death....i sometimes say i want to even die....because i think its me....but....today...it wasn't.Yesterday...a girl that went to my school who i briefly talked to died....she was killed by a stray bullet while reading her book in her room..she was shot in the chest....my feeling was right...someone did die....and it was Shenice Holmes.I felt bad...I knew it...i even told all my friends Hell was coming on my birthday...I felt like crying...because of my bad past.When i was around 7....my very dear aunt died....i went to her funeral...but...i somehow didn't cry...i knew she was dead....but...idk...i guess,i just didn't want to accept it.So...early this morning..there were reporters in front of my Middle school.I felt even worse for my friend Jalah.....she was Shenice's best friend....but....on friday...before the saturday she died...they fell into an argument...Jalah never got to say sorry to Shenice before she died.She felt guilty.....and horrible.I wanted to comfort her....but i just couldn't....i haven't talked to Jalah in a year...what could i say?....all i could do was write her a note and giving her my phone number in case she needed someone to talk to...and i still haven't given her the note yet.What i'm trying to tell you people that are reading this is....to always live your life to the fullest and cherish the ones you love...because you don't know when your story or maybe even theirs may end....thank you for reading....and I pray to God that Shenice is in a better place and knows that Jalah wants to say that she is sorry...R.I.P Shenice Holmes.






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Winksy
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commentCommented on: Fri Jun 09, 2006 @ 09:11pm
geee.....i kinda know how ya feel......4 my 13 b-day......my cay got ran over......and i was up in my 50 foot tall tree......and i practicly jumped down in the sight of watching my nearly 1 year old kitten getting ran over by my lazy uncle who "just didn't feel like checking under the car".and get this:he was just driving accross the street.....so from that moment on....i realized that living sucked........ crying crying .........i'm ok..... cry ......but i never forgave my stupid selfish uncle


commentCommented on: Wed Jun 14, 2006 @ 02:36pm
Yeah.....Cats...Thats exactly what i am feeling...Lol.



ldwta
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