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I'm having a field day, reading through all my old posts. If I were two different people, the me I am now and the me from, oh, let's say 2007-2012... The 2014 me would definitely make fun of the younger me. Is it bad if I say that? I find my adolescent self, ugh, just... for a lack of a better word, inexperienced. Firstly, I romanticized things that shouldn't be romanticized. Like self harm, suicides, wars. //I can't believe I had an entry named War Is Beautiful. [Oh, I guess I should add that every once in a while, I put myself in this rut where I remember every embarassing thing about me and it always leads me back to gaia. This account alone is a goldmine of materials to use as blackmail against me, but at the same time, I'm not going to delete them because... well, Past Me is fun to laugh at]. I guess my first mistake was making an account while I was still in frickin' fourth grade. //and oh jeez, I just realized how long ago that was, heeeelp// Yes. This is a lesson I will enforce on my future children: NEVER make an account when you're under 13. Because holy smokes, I will never let you live it down and I will send you holograms of the things you will post. Okay, so for some odd reason, I was going through an insanity and self-pitying phase? ??? Should I even try to understand the reason behind that? I guess Past Me thought Inasnity=Imagination, but nope, don't make insanity something desirable. And uggghh, all those wallowing posts. You were perfectly fine, okay? You would've been less sad if you went outside more often and talked to actual people, you know? And the whole imaginary friends thing? .... Okay, I can't get you there, because I still have them. [I found one thing I'll never outgrow.] AND YOUR "CRUSHES." Girl, you as thirsty af. Buuut, I actually don't mind some of the stories I've written in the past. If anyone is reading this, I think some of those entries are in private. Sorry, those are for my eyes alone~ Well, at seventeen, can I say that I'm more experienced? Yes, I've been exposed to a lot more things and I apologize for being insensitive in the past. I recognize that some of the things I said are not okay, and again, sorry. [Who am I apologizing to? Not like anyone reads these things anymore, right? Mibba is the place to put things~] Umm, yeah, seventeen. Senior year starting in September. I've come a long way.
For a second, I heard the laughter of my elementary school self. Yeah, the child in all of us never leaves.
And there will come a time when this post will become too awkward for me to handle ... Wonder how old I'll be by then.
EDIT: OMG, I POSTED TWO YEAR AGO FROM TODAY.
x-SincerelyAtlas · Tue Jun 24, 2014 @ 03:50am · 0 Comments |
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