i used to lie alot but when i was choosen by the russian military i lied to a general found in another journal entry 16

( each lie equals a larger pain and a larger sight of not beliving emotions i dont beliven emotions anymore because emotions slow me down and make me think about the past but the past cannot be changed all that matters is the future and my future is blood red i will take no prisoners the russians made me fast again love and sadness means nothing to me anymore )