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Right now today on the outside it may seem that i'm okay,but i know truthfully i'm worried i'm not. They say if you say something enough it will come true, but it was true before i said it.They say your a kid you have no right to be angry, but i am. They put limitation on you but you will either pass them or fail them. I have been having dreams of failing and fearing.i remember months ago at my after school care they asked what are you afraid of. i answer" i,m afraid of loneliness,darkness, murder,myself, and most importantly not becoming who i aways wanted to be. I'm still young,but i already have my future laid out. i just have to follow the steps. That's what i'm dreaming that what i'm fearing my plans won't work out that i might get shot and be in a coma for 6 months or get paralized or hurt. I FEAR DEATH and TRADGETY. Is there a cure? My cousin said everyone dies alone but i don't want too. I want to live forever and love forever, but i know that will not last my body will decay and fade and i will have to face my time. ALONE and honest.
Right now today on the outside it may seem that i'm okay, but on the inside i'm just a person with a lot on my mind; instead of living to the fullest. crying