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never in my life, have i been so confused, one minute i see you as just a friend , the next i can't stop thinking about you as more . what the hell is wrong with me? i tell myself i can't have you that i can't be with you, that its wrong. yet all i want to do is have you wrap your arms around me holding me in your embrace, am i stupid? crazy? pathetic? or maybe all three. my thoughts keep drifting off to thoughts of you, of being with you, of spending days with you, weeks, months, hell i wont sit here and lie, ive also had thoughts of spending years with you. but what i don't understand is why? i do admit i have a very deep fondness for you, and i like you a lot, but why on earth *or in hell* would i have the type of thoughts im having. thoughts ive never once had before. and the weird part is, i enjoy these thoughts *or dreams* what ever you wanna call them. and i know i shouldn't.