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How is it possible to love someone so much yet theres just one part of them you loath and can't stand. Like you just want rip that part of them away and burn it so it never comes back ever agian. Yet you don't want them to feel bad or have to change the way they are for you. So in the end you have to hide what u think inside and it hurts, so much. Sometimes you can't even handle the pain and just want to let it all out because the pain is unbearable. But then that would only cause problems and no one wants that. v.v My boyfriend does things and watches things that i wish he wouldn't, because it makes him into the kind of guy i hate. And i don't want to hate him, i really don't. Yet the things he does make me feel like im nothing and maybe he just might go do things with someone else because i wont do them with him. He says thier needs, but i just can't do the things he wants and it hurts me inside...im sorry just had to let it all out.