Yea...cause I fail at pretty much everything this month d: Sorry for not being on much, for not hanging much, and for pretty much avoiding most everyone on some days.
November is one crazy month! And where I know it is not over yet I just wanted to go ahead and wrap up my November in this journal (seeing as I have been slacking in posting anything).
I started my new job November 1st, the day after I helped host a party at church. I then had classes mon-fri 7am-330 and the training was a lot to take in d: November also had me singing special songs at the nursing home visit my church does twice a year, and sharing my testimony last Tuesday at church.
I passed the test I needed to pass and am now ending my two weeks of on the floor training. I will be moving on to two weeks of shadowing training and I believe its the 14th that I will begin my new job pretty much on my own.
My friend had her baby and Im sad because things havnt worked out for me to even see him yet d: I lost another friend in October which also put me down, but you cant look at the bad all the time because trust me youll be in the worst state of your life possible.
With family visting I got to play around with the little ones all week which is always fun but as most of you probaly already know wears you out like crazy! Also went shopping on black friday, stood outside of target for two and a half hour in 18degree weather biggrin Fun stuff! Had my 5k as well, ran it in 38mins d: Thats what I get for slacking on the last two weeks of training -_- But was fun all the same, slept like a rock later that day teehee.
It may not sound to you like my month was that busy but believe me if it wasnt I would of been here more to see some of you.
What does December hold for someone like me? December has always been a two faced month for me, so a lot of bad days and some good days. Sucks that Im working christmas eve and day but -shrugs- Cant keep thinking about it, just got to push on one day at a time and when those days come try my best to just get through them d:
Still waiting on the year I spend christmas eve and day the way ive always wanted too, but you know what ive waiting this long whats another year or two? Everyone is in such a rush these days d:
I will get to see one of my sisters and her two boys during the christmas break which will be lovely, because I havnt seen them in a year. Its so hard keeping people together, keeping friends, and living life at everyone elses pace when life has other plans.
But I am blessed, dispite all that this year has hit me hard with, I am blessed. Im alive bby, Im still here. Im looking to the positive when I can find it and trying to move past those dark nights when Im just completly lost. Do I have goals before this year is up? Yea, I have a couple. Will I reach them all? No, No I wont. But ive always got next year, and who knows what the future will bring.
Sorta scary and exciting at the same time, you know?! biggrin
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The-Orders-Army · Sun Nov 28, 2010 @ 04:01am · 2 Comments |