"I feel like I'm wearing a mask... one that shows a smile to the world around me. Someone once told me that if I smile and show happiness then it will in turn be shown back to me... yet I still have the eyes of hatred, pain and misery burn upon my flesh. They don't see that I try to change. They still see someone who otherwise should give up on life and rot away as the ashes turn to dust in the wind. I feel like I have walked backwards all my life... never taking a step forward for anything. The things I try to ignore only multiple and expand all around my thoughts... If words have power, then surely they are the cause for my mask to be in place."
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