(^except minus the last line)
The rest I'm going to just write out:
I worry he only thinks he loves me because he hardly knows me...and these damn connections we all have, they make it to where nothing else matters... I just worry that he doesn't realize how bad it gets. Or the fact that I sometimes think of myself as a boy...and though I like gay sex (boy on boy action) the boy in me is completely straight. I know he wouldn't be up for that anyway,and neither would I since my male side is straight but... I'm complicated and he has little idea of any of that.
I usually don't tell anyone about my being bigendered simply because usually it just takes a back seat to everything else. I tend to not even relate to either gender most of the time. I don't know anyone who would understand that anyway.
I feel like you two have your own lives and don't need me around at all.
Sometimes I say things a certain way to get a certain response from you and then I pretend it really is an order like it sounds...I want to ask for more dominance but I know that none of us could really give it the time and attention it would deserve...I'm not sure it'd make anyone but me happy either.
 -Her Masochist- · Sun Oct 10, 2010 @ 05:46pm · 1 Comments |
