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So last night I watched a new music video from my favorite musician/singer Gackt its called Ever and the basic jist of this song is never change your way, meaning don't change who you are just for someone else and never give up on your dreams and I guess goals as well, something I really needed to hear since I'm definitely wavering on my ultimate goal of becoming a singer or producer. I realized I may not want the complete lifestyle of a singer but when it comes down to it, thats the kind of life I'm living now, staying up late because I have to, working all the time, not having a lot of time for other things, well now I just don't really have the money for "fun" activities but I swear once I make it I will make at least a little time to enjoy my money....who says you have to work 24-7 all year long? Gackt doesn't now...at least I don't think so...from what I'm seeing lately he's taking breaks in between things and I think thats the best way to do it. Now onto what I'm so confused about....my boyfriend...I was planning on breaking up with him but the truth is I don't really want to and I don't know if its because I love him or I just don't want to be alone. I don't really think I love him though I think it was just the pain of being cheated on, used or left and him not really caring but....I don't know I was kindof planning on doing the same to him so I guess I just got taught early that I need to talk to him instead of just ditching him.