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For the first time in a while, that "I'm against the world" feeling I get is back...Honestly, is going one day without falling into one of my raging depressions or pissing somene off so much to ask?

Yesterday, I was talking to a friend of mine (yes, this is the one with the sister that i'm crushing on), fully intending to talk to her, and not bring up anyone else, then...i don't know how to say it. s**t hit the fan, basically. i had told er about some of the things i was planning, but i guess she took them the wrong way.

it's this kinda stuff that pisses me of. why can't i EVER seen to do something that I wanna do, word it how i wanna word it, and NOT have someone misinterperate it, and be all "omg i no like this idea." WHY?! is it so much trouble to get one person a phone so i can talk to her more?! yes, i ******** said it. flo's birthday present IS A CELL PHONE! ARE YOU HAPPY NOW, AERIS?!?! no more mystery...i'm not even sure i WANNA do this now. namely because, despite the fact that she knows i like her, aeris is trying to get flo to talk to another guy....god i hate this...i can't even think about it without crying to wanting to rip the head off of something...ANYTHING to get rid of this anger.

why can't anything i plan ever go the way i plan it....

Edit: i got it, though now i'm more pissed then before. my car is to blame this time, so i won;t go further then that.