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Ok so I like a guy and we have been friends for a long time, and I try to make it obvious I like him. But then again I don't wanna chance loosing him either. Ugh it is so complicated! I do not know what to do, not to mention he thinks I am some kinda redneck I'm sure! I should just give up yet I can't help it, I like him to much! Although I would rather see him happy with some one else then not talking to me at all. If I have to suffer to stay by his side then it is worth it. But what do i do? I ussually have no problem what-so-ever telling someone how I feel. I just simply go up and say "I like you". But for the first time in my life I feel I do no know what to do! I can't bring myself to do it for fear of losing him. If I have to watch him go on and get married and do whatever to be able to keep by his side I will. Whatever I could do to make him happy I would. And if it happen to be me leaving him alone and leaving his side even as just a friend I would. I would go through any pain for him. I would do anything for him! I just do not know what to do. There is so much at stake! Do I take a chance or just stand by and watch me loose him. I wish I could tell him but then again I wish I could hide it all, and jsut be with him forever....