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Love is both a sin and a curse all wrapped up in a neat little package making it's recipients unaware of it's poison. Love has a way of taking you on fantastical adventures, with your wildest dreams coming true. Or so you think at first. Then the harsh reality comes crashing in. Alone, your heart battered, dramatic reenacting, the whole shebang. So it was for me.

Now a couple of you knew I was in an online relationship. I understand that it's hard to have one and stay together in the long run to see each other but bare with me. I was in this relationship for a year, and I do honestly believe I was genuinely in love with this guy; I also believed he was loved me back. We had our ups and downs, him not being online all the time so we couldn't talk. Needless to say, it was hard, but I learned to cope with it. I had a tiny glimmer of hope that we could be together for real one day soon.

That all came crashing down when he told me he was moving. Moving to New Zealand, where he was from. I was hurt, and so was he.We had decided to stay together until he moved, so yes, it was a set date. Then, one night he told me that we should just break up instead of waiting for the inevitable. I was heartbroken, and he appeared to be so too. I had kept saying that if this relationship went belly up I was never doing another online relationship again. But we had a plan: to get back together once he was 18 and he came back. And then reality kicked in.

A couple months went by, and I noticed that a girl I had on my Facebook account said she was in a relationship for about tow months at that time. I got curious as to who it was, and saw, to my surprise that it was my ex. I got mad. I raged. I ******** cried my heart out that he would do something like that. I deleted him AND her off my Facebook, off my MSN, and anything else I had them on. But that was it. I never went into a jealous fit and started harassing them, no. Instead, I kept my feelings to myself. Until, that is, my manager questioned me about whether or not I was going to be moving in with him in NZ. She brought it to my attention that I broke up with him a couple months ago. I thought about it, and yeah, we DID break up a couple months prior.

See where I'm going with this? The possibilities on the internet is endless. You could have 4 girlfriends online and one IRL. We broke up because we didn't want to be even further away from each other (we were 12 hours apart before), and he starts E-dating some chick that's on the OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY. Stoopid f*****t.

My rant is done, and I'm done with him. This was a while ago, but for some reason I'm only just noticing that my post didn't make it through.

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