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I dunno either >.<


iLadyShira-chan
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“When I die, will anyone notice I’m gone?”

“I never became emo… I just got tired of pretending I was happy.”

“I’m going to smile like nothing’s wrong, talk like everything’s perfect, act like it’s all a dream, and pretend it’s not hurting me.”

“Strength is nothing more than how well you hide the pain…”
“I use to have a handle on life… but then it broke…”

“When I said I was happy, I was lying…”

“What I really meant to say, is that I’m sorry for the way I am.”

“I used to make my parent’s proud.”

“I wish I was a white crayon… so then I would never be used.”

“One day someone asked a girl why she talked to herself, and she answered: ‘Because no one else will listen’.”

“If anyone could see all the tears I cried.”

“What do you do when the only person that could always make you stop crying, is the one that made you cry?”

“What do you do when the one person that you could always count on, leaves you in the end?”

“If I could show you how awful you made me feel, you would never look me in the eyes again”

“I think I’m afraid to be happy. Because when ever I’m truly happy, something bad always happens.”

“Sometimes when I say “I’m fine” I want somebody to look me in the eyes and say “Tell the truth”.”

“Underneath the smile, my world is slowly caving in.”

“You don’t know what I’m hiding behind this smile.”

“Oh don’t worry… you didn’t break me… you completely destroyed me.”

“It’s amazing that I can be in a room full of people and still feel completely alone.”

“I’m shocked, amazed, confused when people say that they love me. Why would they!?”

“You have no idea how I feel. Trust me.”

“I’ve been secretly falling apart.”

“In a world of 6 billion people… how can I be so alone…?”

“I wear a plastic smile”

“I wish someone would notice the tears I cry…”

“Just once, I want somebody to be afraid of losing me”

“Am I really as worthless as you make me feel.”

“Every time I think I’ve hit the bottom, somebody lends me a shovel”

“Just once I would like to wake up and feel good about myself”

“I love it when it rains, so then I don’t have to cry alone.”

“You asked me what was wrong and I said “nothing” then turned around and whispered “everything”.”

“You think I’m so tough, but I just never let you see me cry…”

“It’s hard to answer the question, “What’s wrong” when nothing’s right.”

“Pain doesn’t hurt, when it’s all you ever felt…”

“I think it’s cute when you say I’m beautiful. It’s just that I hate liars”

“I love you is spelled with eight letters. So is Bullshit”

“I love to walk in the rain, then no one can see the tears falling down my face then…”

“I’m smiling… but screaming in my head the words I can’t say…”

“My tongue burns with words I never said. My cheek is stained with tears I never cried…”

“The worse thing about being lied to, is knowing you weren’t worth the truth…”

“I don’t see why they call it a broken heart. The rest of my body is in pain too…”

“I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.”

“There's a girl in my mirror crying tonight, and there's nothing I can say to make her feel all right.”

“Someday came suddenly”

“I would like to stay a secret, like walking in the dark, if no one knows you, no one cares and no one breaks your heart.”

“Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in little kid’s heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after.”

“There's this girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her and sometimes I wish I did. There is a story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbye. When she's looking back at me I can tell...she's hurting inside.”

“I wonder what gave everybody the idea that I have it all together.”

“I’m the girl who hides the pain with the smile that brightens everybody else’s day.”

“What am I suppose to believe in, when in the middle of belief is a ‘lie’?”

“Sometimes the pain's too strong to bare...and life gets so hard I just don't care. I feel so alone, I just sit and cry...every second I wish I could die. Then I start thinking who would care...if one day they woke up-and I wasn’t there?”

“You'll just never know...so many emotions I can not show..”

“I'm not afraid of the gun in my hand, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm just afraid of the pain it will bring, and to see my best friends crying.”

“I screw up every little good thing I ever try to do. I was born to lose.”

“You can’t spell ‘I believe’ without ‘lie’.”

“Ooh, but don’t worry. It only hurts when I breathe, my heart beats, and I dream.”

“My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I'm hoping things will look up, and right when they do, there's always something to ******** it up, and we're back at square one.”

“Have you lived my life? One minute in my shoes? If you haven’t than tell me why, you judge me as you do?”

“I'm tired of trying. I'm sick of crying. Yeah, I'm been smiling, but inside I'm dying.”

“People think she's so strong...because she [pretends] nothing is wrong.”

“S(he) Be(lie)ve(d)”

“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you”

“Sometimes I lie awake at night, and ask, 'Where have I gone wrong?' Then a voice says to me, 'This is going to take more than one night.'”

“Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me.”

“When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.”

“I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.”

“I want to scream until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson. I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep. So I don't have to make a bad impression I need to start to be myself because I'm sick of everybody else”

“Just swallow me whole… just swallow me whole and watch me die in your arms.”

“It feels like my life is one big joke, that everybody but me, is in on”

“I’m shocked, broken, and dying inside.”

“I’m not pretty like those girls in those magazines.”

“I hope you realize that I just don’t give a s**t.”

“I wish you would pay attention to the music I listen to. Sometimes they say the words, I’m too terrified to say.”

“Music soothes my ragin’ soul.”

“I keep all the pain to myself. I’d rather force a smile and a laugh than show weakness in front of others”.

“I hate that they act like I can’t hear them…”

“You do NOT know me, so stop acting like you do!”
“Don’t you dare act like this is all about you! Don’t you ******** dare! Don’t you act like you’re the only one that’s in pain, like the rest of us are immune to it! Don’t you ******** dare!!!”

“I wish I could close my eyes, and never open them again.”

“This love, this hate; It’s burning me away.”

“I can’t take it… not one more step… cause I’m so close to the edge… and I’m ready to fall; ready to leap and leave this world behind, and watch it all go”

“Wish I could take that blade and cut myself so deeply that I would never feel again.”

“I’ve got the gun in my hand and the blood on my hands. Am I damned? God I tried, am I lost in your eyes?”

“This was an accident. Not the kind where sirens sound. Never even noticed, I was suddenly crumbling. Random acts of mindless violence, common places, occurrences. Doesn’t surprise you to find I have another state of consciousness? Do you still have doubts that me having faith makes any sense?”

“I want to shut out the voices in my head telling me I’m not good enough. Unfortunately, they’re memories of people telling me that… rather than my own.”

“I want to die.”

“I’m breaking apart.”

“Sometimes… I wish I could run away. Leave this all behind, and start a new life. Never have to see another person from my past. Never live this life again. Doesn’t that sound wonderful?”

“I’ll let you blame me for awhile… so you can be guilt free in the morning.”

“Everybody wants to be in on the pressure; but I know they’re all waiting for me to crash.”

“I can never catch a break, can I?”

“I’m so young… and I’m already sick of living.”

“These wounds won’t seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There’s just too much that time can not erase. When you cried, I’d wipe away all of you tears. When you screamed, I’d fight away all of your fears. I held your hands through all of those years. And you still have all of me.”

“Your face it haunts… my once pleasant dreams. Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.”

“I bet all along I’m alone.”

“You fight about money, about me and my brother, and this I come home to, this is my shelter. It ain’t easy growing up in World War 3, never knowing what loved could be. I don’t want love to destroy me, like it has done my family.”

“I can’t do this.”

“I struggle to live. I don’t know what to say, I’m not sure what ‘normal’ is. I don’t talk, I just smile. Even when I cry. I’ve gotten so good at acting like I’m not dying a little more each day.”

“Another day alone, and the emptiness is so real”

“You take me and break me, build me up then tear me down, use me and bruise me, then say that you love me. If that is what love is, I don’t want it."

“I am a doll for play, or do the words you said mean anything? Are words only words or is it meant to kill me when times go by? Am I nothing, or the words made to make me feel like I am nothing? Will the days pass by and get brighter? Will I ever find someone, someone to call my own, or was I meant to be alone?”

“This world brought me down...crashed me to the floor and stomped on me. Let me down, turned its back and walked away to leave me lay on the cold hard ground to die alone.”

“I feel myself slipping once again, I know what’s to come now, I've been here before. Loneliness and despair, just me and my thoughts, my private struggle.....

I don't want much, just to be free from this darkness, this pain, this fear. I wish people didn't judge, I'm not 'weak'! I can't just 'pull myself together!' I wish it were that easy.....

I wish they understood, I wish I didn't have to pretend, I wish I didn't have to hide, I wish I wasn't me!”

“I'm alone, surrounded by a crowd of friends. My ears hear nothing but the stories that don't include me, my eyes see nothing but the people turned away, and my hands feel the cold that comes from having no one around to just give me a hug. That's all I really want... a hug... and someone to be there when they say they will.”

“Sometimes I would give anything just to be something more than nothing.”

“It’s like those words are engraved into my memory, and when I least expect it they come back to remind me, I will never be happy.”

“It’s okay. I’m okay. I’ll smile. I’ll breathe deeply. I’m okay. These are tears of happiness, and not anguish. I’ll laugh a little, and soon everybody around me will believe those lies again.”

“I’m not broken. I’m completely shattered.”

“Sometime’s the pain is just too much; I want to die.”

“I’m trying so hard. And every second, it’s like, I disappoint another person. They find out that I’m not like everybody else. And that’s what kills me. Is that I can’t be who you wanted to see.”

“I always find my place among the ashes.”

"I'm so sick of when they say, it's just a phase, you'll be okay, you're fine. But I know that's a lie."

“I’m not okay.”




 
 
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