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During fourth period today, I got to see one of my senior friends and another girl who graduated last year. Both are lesbians, but they're still amazing people.

The girl who graduated last year is short, with dark hair. I think she's partly Asian, but I think she's pretty.

I got to hug her. And since fourth period, I can't stop thinking about her. It's not love at first sight. I don't know WHAT it is, but I just can't stop thinking about her! She's nineteen or so, older than me.

And as far as I know, I'm straight. But there's just something about her that makes my pulse race and my heart beat out of rhythm. My senior friend was like "don't corrupt her!" during part of the conversation, and we all laughed.

But I just thought it was interesting. I've heard what a few people say about her: some like her, others don't. She's at college, but she's not too far away. I feel like I want to get to know her.

I still can't believe that I'm thinking about her! A female! Not a man, but a beautiful woman. It's just different. She makes me heart beat and my mind go blank. I don't quite understand it, so I'm just going to ask my other senior friend about it the next time I see her.

God willing, she can help me. I don't think I like girls, but I'm just confused about this ONE that I can't get my mind off of. I'm so going to die. XD