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Erm...So there is actually someone who think they have something to affect me *laughs*
*shakes head* How many times have I acted like this?


Or...Is it just an old habit that I love?
How many times have I blinded myself and sacrifice for others' sake?
Eeerrr~ Why do I ask questions that I have already known the answers?
*laughs* Still, I love the ones I love and that is not going to change.
Or the way I have always been.
I am just proud to be myself. And it is not like I care if I die or vanish. That is just one part of nature. Struggling or bend yourself down just proves that you are a fool.

Well, separating is necessary. Anyone who does not get it, don't speak like you know. *laughs*
Someone did say one time that "personal business is on top of everything else."
Wow...Now it proves that they really do understand that *sniggers*

Eh...Please do not be upset of whatever I have said, darlings. I still love all of you, regardless of what I have done. (Who are "darlings" and who are not, isn't it so obvious?) How many times have I said I love you?

The decision was absolutely mine and mine alone, and I cannot care less about the price I have to pay. *shrugs* I have more than enough courage for the worst and everything I have now,though of course not perfect, makes me content.

What easy comes, easy goes and the other way around.

Even if I have to close my eyes, I still have a beloved family to love me, more that I could have asked. Even when they get separated from me, I still know the devotion between us cannot be broken.

So I am content.

I have a beloved family.

A lovely brother who I would die to protect.
A caring mother who always keeps track of me and never let me slips away again.
A talented father who would go any lenght to protect me.
An amazing sensei who, though busy and lazy, always makes sure he can call me at least twice a month just to know how I am doing.

And the three other most beloved ones...

Is there anything I would not do for the sake of your smiles?
So please do not ask me the reason why, it pains me to look at your hurtful expressions. Just how much I love you, do you know that?

And there are still my long time acquaintances, who have been fighting by my side for how long I could not remember...

I love you all so much.

And as I have said before, if I do not bid you farewell, then no matter what happens, I will always, always return.

I just want you to know, even at the minute my coffin would be closed, I would still be smiling.

You learn from your mistakes of the past, just to make a sastisfied ending.

Find peace with Death. *laughs*