Some people need to realize...
That I'm not okay..
I spend the day pretending...
The night crying..
Barely hanging on...
I live every day...
Misleading everyone to think I'm okay...
But I'm not...
Without him...
I am nothing...
Dreams are nightmares...
Everything reminds me of him...

But today will be different...
I'll smile...
And I'll mean it..
I won't be the little girl who gets sad and depressed every day..
I'll be happy for once...
Although I'm not sure how..