1.I am a burden to this “family” and therefore burdens should be dead
2. I am a waste of space, a disgrace to this family, and therefore I should die
3. I am a failure to myself academically which won’t take me far so therefore I should die
4. I am a failure in their eyes – it’s always been like this, it needs to be stopped, so the failure must die
5. I am a financial burden due to the fact that instead of wasting money on me they could be richer and live a better life without a financial burden like myself
6. I have restarted my cutting and it has spread from the wrist to my stomach and lower back to express my pain – the only better way to express this pain is through a form of suicide
7. I have been contemplating suicide for a good while now so why not go through with it?
8. I hate myself.
9. I can’t stand this pain I’m feeling anymore and I need to be rid of it.
10. I was told numerous times I should die, well, the people who told me that are getting their wish.
11. I’m stressed anymore and I know it’s not the right way to live.
12. I’ve been abused a good deal of my life and it’s finally crashing down on me like a wave on the sand.
13. Very few people seem to notice how I feel; especially around the household where you can barely express any emotion thanks to the “father.”
14. What’s the point of living when you can’t even be your own self in your own house?
15. I’m being forced into everything, especially my own future.
16. I wish I was never born because apparently I’m not the perfect daughter.
17. People expect too much of me and it’s killing me with every failure I see in myself.
18. I’m a freak. Physically and mentally.
19. I could send this "family" into poverty because of me.
20. I never do anything right, let alone do anything good enough in my dad's eyes.
21. I don’t want to hurt anymore; myself or anyone else. The only way that this can be prevented is if I die.
22. I don’t want to become like my father and yet sometimes I feel as if I’m gradually turning into him.
23. I’m not what he wants me to be despite my own wishes to do as I please.
24. All I feel anymore is sorrow, anger, and sometimes other emotions.
25. I’m not like other girls. I’m not a conformist.
26. I may be expelled from my college if my finals are bad.
27. I want to be someone else and find I can’t.
28. If God won’t kill me then I might as well kill me.
29. My thoughts are mentally sick and deformed and I wish they would stop hurting me –they never do.
30. I want to die.
So...if I am expelled for having bad grades, then I will be dead. Otherwise, I may live. It's a 75/25 chance that I do but ya.
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