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So, its the first of November, and I have to work all day. 10:30-7:00 are my hours. I work at Giant Food Stores on Street Road in Bensalem, PA. I am the guy who puts up all those wonderful little endcaps with tons of product on it just so people can buy it seconds after.

Today I'm hoping that I don't have to deal with anything too bad, even though I know I will, but I know that I have about 4 projects due tomorrow morning, and I only have 1 of them done. I am looking forward to the week because I have off Tuesday and Thursday, as well as the fact that...I am happy right now. I can't explain why I'm happy, but what has happened the past few weeks should be explaination enough. So, here goes the explanation of the past few weeks:

I was all bummed out about my Xbox360 being broke (it still is), when, at the college I go to, I met some people who still like to play Yu-gi-oh. I brought my cards in and started playing with them. Their names were Kelsey, Brian, TJ, and Anthony(biggie). Over the course of time that we began to learn about each other, a few more of my friends came back into my life, Rich and Toska. I was getting happier to see that I had so many friends who remembered and cared about me. I was accepted into the Inner Circle of my college friends, and met someone. This someone was a girl, and I liked her. What made things better/worse at the same time was that she was my friend's girlfriend's twin sister. It was better because I had a sort of connection through my friend with her, it was worse because that connection could be what kept me friends with her. When I told my friends at the college how I liked her, I was pleasantly suprised when I found out that, they knew her too! With unknown feelings, I was comforted with the thought that, even if she had no feelings for me, I'd do what I have always done, just be a friend (and avoid the awkwardness that follows when one person talks of their feelings that the other doesn't express the same.) When I learned of her feelings towards me, I felt amazing, I was finally gonna have my first girlfriend. I let things sit for a few days, because I wasn't gonna be able to see her till that Friday because of school and work. That Friday we hung out, but talked nothing of our emotions. Hands were held but no actions were taken (to be honest, I was afraid). The night came and went, my friends, her, and I went to Nifty Fifty's to have a late dinner/snack type thing where she showed me some videos and I felt closer to her. The next day I felt a little lonely, away from her, even now as I'm writing this, I feel this little space that should be filled, not with time together or anything like that, but the feelings that I felt when I was around her. That Wednesday I wanted to see her again but I had to go home from the mall early because of a family problem. I was depressed that I wasn't able to be there, even if she wasn't able to come. But 2 nights ago, on Friday, we hung out once more. We held hands, we talked (still no emotional change), we played, and we reacted to each other. A couple of friends asked if we were together, and we had a, "I guess," kind of answer. When asked if this was a date, I had replied, "only if you would consider this one." I know, kinda cheesy, but that is truly how I felt. I didn't want to just outright say, "yeah, it is." If she didn't feel that it was. After taking home a couple of my friends, Anthony(Uzan), Chelsea(his gf), Shelby(my gf), and I went back to her house where she and I sat on a swing on the front area of the house for a couple of hours, just talking. But this wasn't like the other talks we had had, this was the talk I had wanted and was afraid to talk about. I had to talk about my feelings toward her. We cuddled and I felt strangely complete sitting there with her in my arms. I was asked of my history, and said of how I had never had a girlfriend, which was replied with, "well, you have one now." and I was even happier. I was told something that just melted me to my core, I wasn't single anymore. The conclusion of the past few weeks are this, new friends came into my life, old ones returned, and I formed a bonb with a beautiful girl which resulted in a relationship forming. I was no longer single, I finally had a girlfriend. But then, I realized, I hadn't really asked her out yet. Due to all of my work and school, we really didn't have time to be together. With me at college, her still in HS, me working at Giant, and her at MickyD's, the only time I was able to see that was able to happen was either when Chelsea's boyfriend was working the night so that we could hang out sometime, or Friday's when Shelby would usually be at the mall. Which brings me to today, I know I don't have much of a life, I don't have that many experiences, I don't even have that much freedom due to everything else, but onet hing is for certain, when I'm with you Shelby, I feel like there is nothing else in the world.