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i wonder if this is what it feels like to die? cold..alone..hurting...with no brakes from the pain..it just flows in...the only way i know im still alive..is if i lay down quietly..i can hear it..my heart beat...wispering her name with each beat...just hearing it gives me strength..but everytime i hear it now..it does something else to...it feels me with fear...im scared of her hurting me..my heart has faith in her..but my hand and body shakes..at the pure fear..of what my brain is telling me she might do...body racing pain...as i scream out..and i find no peace..i cry out..and she doesnt hear me...my heart tries to fight all the fear..ut im so scared its hurting my heart..its on fire...the only thing that helps me..gives me any relief..is her voice...and to see her beautiful face...i have a photo of her on my phone...when i cry and scream out in pain..i look at her picture on my phone...and i hold it to my heart...and kno her love is close to me...and it does help..it helps so much..ut i need her...the real one..i need HER to comfort me..because my heart doesnt sleep..it beats constantly for her..and it doesnt ever get tired..its just hurting right now...but i have faith...faith that she will heal it...put the pieces back in place...and fix my soul..make me whole again..cierra..if im sleeping..are if im dead...please wake me up..please bring me to life...take away this pain im living in...i love you with all of my heart..every little piece...ill love you forever and ever..nomatter what..please help me be strong..so i can be with you always...and forever...you mean everything to me...f it wasnt for you..id be dead...both inside and outside...save me..right now..im in the darkness again...and i need you to be my angel...bring me out of this darkness iv already been in so much....please...save me...
I love you..<3333 with all my heart, soul, and everything else i have..<333