when duse she know.
she will never know. she whaits, sitting there,waiting two see if he well give in to it. just waiting. hopeing that it hasn't got that bad. she knows it will kill him. she just is being a fool for wonting him to live a longer life. 'why god why him' she asks. she didnt get that long with him just a lowsy 9 years with him. she well miss him soo bad.

'why. why do you let this dame s**t in the world' she cant take it she wonts to kill herself. but she cant she has to be strong for her mother for her father for her family back home.

and for herself. most inportinly herself 'bestrong bestrong' she chants. its her song when she sleeps ay night its in her dreams. its in her evry waking moment.


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