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I hate myself so much! I know i don't diserve her, but this is all so hard and complex! i can't kill myself i could never do that to her, but... Every time i wake up it gets harder and harder. Sometimes i just want to cut my throat open, or tear out my heart. All i've been doing for the past week has been sinking futher and further into crippling depression. I'm not sure how much longer i can last before everything becomes too much. Eventually if this keeps up... I pretty sure one morning i won't wake up.