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Okay well today...yesterday acctually...i went to the mall.
I went to meet up with Christan.
Guy from like first months of school that i really likED.
The night before i was talking to him again and he went back to old habits of caling me cute.
I dont like it when he does it cus it makes me feel odd.
I started thinking about how nice he was.
And long story short we decided that night that today we would make-out.
At first i was just like
"Ha! this will be a funny day!"
Then i get there and i dont want to like him.
I knew this before i even got there or started texting him the night before.
So i get there and i was like "i'll just read while im waiting for my doom."
As soon as i find my book he comes out of no where.
First thought.
"Face ******** me."
Then i put the book back and him and i talk about stpid stuff for like an hour or 2.
When the conversation semi stops i go and get that book back.
(i really did want to read that book)
I would read some and conversate some.
Not to bad.
Then he asks me who took my first kiss and all these kissing questions.
I wanted to run away from him at that moment just yelling.
"i will not fall for you again!"
So then i look at my bus scheduale and i decide the faster i leave the faster this will be over so i look for the closest bus time.
One hour for the next bus.
At least i have books to read.
The hour oes by and i say i have to go so he walks me to the bus stop.
We are just standing there for a while...[this is where it gets crazy]
He scoots back and pulls me by the hips with him.
He is sitting but keeps telling me to.
I just say "no the bus is going to be here like now."
He just keeps hugging me and is playing with my hand.
My heart was practicly exploding by this point.
Then he says "is that it?"
It was.
I say "yes" thinking more like a loud happy song yelling YAY all over the place.
He looks up at me and we kiss.
Im pretty shocked at this time.
I start going toward the bus and ther are people in likne and he pulls my arm back to him and just says "again"
Im exploding every where.
It was hot outside and i felt a bit like throwing up.
He starts really trying to make-out.
I could feel his lips around my bottom lip and his tonge touching my top lip.
I pull away akwardly and tell him i have to get on the bus bfore it leaves.
Once i got on the bus i almost cryed.
My eyes were watering and my lips felt discusting.
It was like putting my lips in a jar of hot spit and rubing them with really smooth glass.
That feeling is still here and i already told him i dont want anything to really do with him any more.
He sends me 4 texts back.
The first saying he didnt understand.
Second he shold have broke up with his now ex-girlfriend to date me in like December.
Third.
This is the worst text.
At least we can still kiss.
I ******** cryed.
I take kissing very seriously and us doing it felt wrong and gross.
Then he like insults it by saying we still can.
I havent texted him back.
burning_eyes
Feeling really really REALLY sick
gonk issa gonk
 Icrush · Wed May 27, 2009 @ 08:28am · 0 Comments |
