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the hiding is killing me from the inside out...
my suroundings make me hide as i want to come out but i just cant...
because most of the time i wish i could see the sun come out and see myself happy for once because my hiding was done...
yet the darkness of this world is my surounding for life because to stop hiding is a huge step in life...
to show who i am i just cant its hard when your used to having a fake smile on everyday and saying everything is ok when your not...
when the sigh or the frown comes out others worry but it shouldnt be that way...
to keep things to myself thats all im good at i cant say things i want to say without walking away...
but someday i just hope this will all end and i will find a place right for me...
a place were no one cares about how you act and look...
a place were i can stay forever and not go back...because i would never want to...
now i noticed that the place is only found when life has ended and you dont have to set foot on earth again....because your worrys are no more and the people dont have to waste their time on trying to see if the smile is real or fake....they could just wait.....