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big problem about my friend and a guy!!!! i have a friend called Scarlet and she like to hangout with me a lot... but when she met my friend (XenusDARK) she totally had a big crush on him..... but then one day she started hitting me so she can get my friends attention. but when my friend s

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just why..
why do i feel like this?
everytime i talk to him, i feel so happy..
but whenever i see him with another girl, i feel all of this burdens in my shoulder..
why.. this does not mean love? does it?
I have not yet confessed my feelings for him, but that is because i treat him as a friend.. a close friend perhaps.
Everyday, i think about him..
His hair..his eyes.. and everything else that i could think of.
But why do these sensational feelings keep hidden inside of me?
perhaps i am shy..because i know that i am not important.
Not important to anyone else.
I may be seen, but i am invincible, i am quiet and shy..
I do not think that i am special, as everyone else.
You may think that i sound "emo", but have you realised, that there's no such words in dictionary.
I suggest, that you use words wisely, because i seem to see everyone use such a language that they do not intent to control.
But why is that?
Is this how teenagers grows these days? I guess thats it.

Anyways, back to my desire of hope, willingly to love him.
I shall not say his name, therefore he is a crush and should be kept as a secret.
but all these secrets are just trying to burst out of my body. I just dont have the guts, to talk about what i feel about him.
I just hope, that he will be much closer to my heart, bringing me more happiness in life. No i do not wish to marry him, although i dont know what lies ahead of me. But i am certain that i will finish Highschool or College and step outside to the realworld and start a family of my own.
That i desire..

That'll be all. ^^

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