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Laying here

I'm laying in the corner curled in a ball of pain,
wondering if you feel any shame.
wondering why you laugh when I cry
and why you love it when I'm in enough pain that I want to die.
Is it that you are going mad
or is it true that I'm bad?
Is it that you are emotionless
or are you just soulless?

I just had surgery the other day
but you still won't stay away.
You still slap me.
You still punch me.
You still kick me when I'm down.
No one knows because they are not allowed around.

All you do is laugh at me
because i try to hide my tears from you, so you won't see
how much your crulity is hurting me.

But i know the truth why you hate me so.
You hate me because I'm everything you are not.
Since I'm smart you want me to rot.
Since I'm caring you wish I would die.
Since I'm loving you wish someone will hurt me enough that my heart will brake and all i will do is cry.
Since I can be happy you want me to be miserable.
Sine I know how to live, how to laugh, how to...how to be everything your not.
You lock me in the basement to rot.

I'm laying here in pain
wondering if you feel any shame.