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Just Isn’t Worth it

You say you know me.
You say you know what I’m feeling.
You say you understand feeling
Alone and broken…
You say you know how it feels to be me,
But I wonder,
Do you really understand?
Do you want to know?
Do you care to know?
Do you want to see the disgusting creature
Residing in me?

You say you know me.
Feeling worthless and feeling alone even when
There’s so many people around me!
You say you know how it feels like inside of me.
Something inside tearing me up,
Making me linger in brutal pain.
Something telling me no one cares!
Do you trust the voices,
Too?

You tell me
You’re just as
Lonely as me. But I wonder,
Do you really know?
Do you cry every night
Beg the reaper to take your soul?
Do you know what it feels like to be
Alone
And feel the heart breaking on uncertain circumstances?
If only you knew…

You say you know what it feels like
To feel used
And used again.
Do you believe yourself
When you smile and tell people you’re fine?
Because I don’t.

You tell me you know what it
Feels like to want to stop breathing.
You tell me you know what it’s
Like inside of me.
Do you really want to see the creature
Deliberately thrashing me apart?
Will you turn away?
Will you look and smile?
What will you do?
Will you be scared?

Do you know what it feels like
Forgotten and abandoned?
Used and betrayed?
Secret and silent?
Dead and gone?
Do you truly know?
Do tell me,
Do you know?

Forgotten and abandoned,
Crying night after night
Slowly rocking yourself to sleep
Slowly thinking of ways
To end it all?

Breathless and worthless,
Sad and lonely
Distrusted and unlucky?
Do you really know?

You say you know what it feels like!
Broken and abandoned!
Sad and distrustful!
If only you knew…
I don’t think you know.

Please stop lying,
It’s not worth it.

You say you know me,
You say you love me,
You say I’m beautiful,
But I’ve spent so many nights alone,
You just aren’t worth it.