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I have so much to spill
I'm feeling so sad right now... re-reading rejection right in the face, then seeing that you've been rejected without someone telling you is... You must be thinking it's about a guy or something, but it's about colorist jobs. Worse, I saw how they treated everyone else. Friendly, happy. When DragonScales saw my application, they just gave me a 'go away, you're not welcome here' tone of answer. It must seem like I'm a drama queen, and I guess I am. Lately, I've been looking for reasons to be sad, rather than happy. I don't know what to do. I feel like if I do something to try release my false pain, that it would be better to hold it all in. And that if I were to tell someone about it, they'd just try give me useless pep talk. I guess that I'm just a pessimist. I'm also frustrated by a shading template for an extra sample for an application. It's weird and I can't work with it. I feel so happy about the achievements I have(if they count), like the beautiful sample I made two days ago. Or my ability to play DDR. I can't say anything about my art skills, I can't draw very well. I'm not really writing this much, so my moods are varying. I'm happy because the shading template is working now! I feel like I could take on any template now! *Switches to happily carefree* What sucks about school is the only kid I was seated next to was Erik, the jerkiest jerk ever, who annoys me more than I annoy myself(which is a lot). I'm re-addicted to Pokemon Crystal, and got A FEMALE CHIKORITA!!!( Female starters are rare) I'm having an art craving, and am trying to make intricate patterns so DragonScales actually bothers with me. I also put line edits on the same sample so that Dynasty Mountain would want me more, now that I can work well with the sample. I hope I get hired, cause if I don't then learning the template will have been completely useless.
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