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I won't deny it, the past still haunts me. It drags me down, especially since it's all I think about. It completely fills my mind, so I can't think about anything else that I should be thinking about. I will never be good enough. Taking my own life would be the easy way out, seeing as how to keep living is much more painful that death. In death there is a feeling of nothingness. It is perhaps almost exactly when you turn off a computer. There is no emotion or feeling. No passion but no sorrow. All turns to black. In death there is no darkness nor no light. Life is your hell or your heaven. A good person has their life become heaven, while people like me burn in its darkness.