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My ex boyfriend finally acknowledged me yesterday! It's a miracle!!! I got him a gumball before I left our hangout spot and like he gave me a hug! But I still don't know what the gig is for him...Maybe he's just trying to act nice so that way he can get me back.... neutral

I miss my boyfriend terribly. It really blows. I can't believe that he's grounded. He didn't know why either. His parents didn't even give him a reason...That's sadness...I really do hope he is ungrounded by Friday so he could call me and let me know if he'll be around for Valentine's Day...I just don't want to be alone... crying

Valentine's Day is this Saturday. I have nothing to do that day. I have no plans...So I'm pretty much gonna be alone. I have no one to be with that day...Unless my boyfriend comes up or my ex boyfriend (which I know it sounds really messed up) decides he wants to do something with me to keep me company. Otherwise...I'm just alone...And crying...Like always...I hate Valentine's Day because it's supposed to be the day of love and happiness, not a day full of the usual emotional crying crap that I always have to put up with...But it always ends up being another "regular" day for me. It's so sad. I try and try to make myself happy and loved on Valentine's Day, but it always brings me back to old memories of guys or girls I'd dated that I was in love with, and then it just brings me down again. I'm just bad luck for relationships with guys. I've had it good with the girls, though...I've been with only two girls in my entire life on the dating scene. The longest I've lasted is almost two years. That's pretty darn good. With the males, it's a bit different. The longest I've ever been with a male is two and a half years. That guy was very sweet, and he treated me nice, with the utmost respect. But the other males up to the current one were all nice for awhile, then they'd just give up on me and hate me. The one I'm with now is sweet and is just like the one that I was with for two and a half years. We're in love. But he lives in Denver, whilst I live up here in Greeley. I'm not so sure anymore. The last girl I was with broke up with me for some dude that I didn't really approve of. And I still don't approve of him. I wish that he wasn't part of her life. I wish that she and I were still together. I loved her so much. We would've done something together this Saturday for Valentine's Day, if she weren't betrothed and getting married to that guy, her and her brother would be able to do something with me that day. Whatever... confused